I've spent the last week living at my parents house while they've been in Hong Kong. On Thursday, I found myself thinking, "What's different? I feel significantly less stressed." I stopped by my apartment to pick up the mail and immediately realized what had happened.
Now, please understand that I have legitimately been trying really hard to have patience with my one roommate. I know that I don't control the choices others make. I'm also very aware that I still suffer the consequences of those choices others make( trust me, I KNOW this). I've been trying to roll with the punches and not worry about things I can't control. However, it's gotten to the point where I am suffering in most negative ways.
Due to my insanely busy schedule, which isn't going to change in the near future, I have tiny windows in which to get certain things taken care of. For example, eating. I do not have time to clean up someone else's mess, cook dinner, eat and then turn around and clean up my mess. I'm sorry, I just don't. And when I have 1 hour to do that in, i can't be competing with someone else in the kitchen.
Additionally, my job is to play the piano. If i want to keep this job, and I very much do, I need to be practicing. And that means I need to fit it in on my schedule. But i always feel like I'm inconveniencing someone.
So I just don't eat and I don't practice.
I'm sure this sounds like I'm being unreasonable and inflexible. I acknowledge that I'm not perfect, far from, and that I have less than desirable traits. Some of them I have a better handle on.
I know that not everything is in my power to change. But some things are. This is.
So I'm going to move. I guess I just need my own space. You try running a house for 8 years and then trying to have roommates. It's rough. This decision also helps me as I come to terms with the reality that I may be single for a long while. I have to figure out the best way I can deal with that. I feel this is best for me.
So I'm on the hunt. 1 or 2 bedrooms. $700 or less a month. North Salt Lake, I'm thinking. Keep your eyes and ears open. Making this decision as already lifted a huge weight from my shoulders.
Have your famiily start asking people in their wards if anyone who is going on missions needs a house sitter. That's a great way to meet all your needs and you don't have pets or kids to ruin their house while they're gone. It's a win win. Many of them probably have their houses paid for and might give you a rent break. Think about it.
ReplyDeleteI hope the new house hunt doesn't take too long. It definitely sounds like that is the right move to make.
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