Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Gratitude Day 30
Today I am really grateful for my Patriarchal Blessing. Maybe it's the trying time I'm going through right now. Maybe it's because I stumbled on the journal that had my patriarchal blessing tucked in it. (Maybe it's both) But I take great comfort in knowing that the Lord has a plan for me and that if I am obedient and righteous, there are blessings far beyong my imagination just waiting for me.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Gratitude Day 29
Today, I'm grateful for Bones. I really enjoy watching this show. Because of my crazy schedule, and the fact that I don't really watch TV at all anymore, I watch online. I'm getting all caught up. I'm really excited to see how everything plays out this season. It makes me feel smart and dumb at the same time.
Monday, November 28, 2011
Gratitude Day 28
I'm grateful for a washer and dryer. I can't even imagine having to wash my clothes by hand. Also, I'm grateful for irons(although, I'm more grateful for wrinkle-free fabrics...but alas that is NOT what several of my recent purchases have been). I was able to run my laundry in a matter of a couple hours...instead of a day or two! Can you imagine NOT having a washer and dryer?! *shudder*
Gratitude Day 27
Yesterday, I went to a baby blessing. It was my friend Cecily's baby. He's super cute. Seriously. But what I wanted to talk about is how grateful I am that I met Cecily and that we're friends! My life seriously would not be the same without her in it! She's the reason I do shows again. She's the reason I play at the University of Utah. Basically, she's the driving force behind a lot of things that are super awesome in my life! I love her to pieces and it makes me feel warm inside that I got to be part of such a special day for her family!
I'm honestly grateful every single day for Cecily!
I'm honestly grateful every single day for Cecily!
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Gratitude Day 26
I'm grateful it's not after Thanksgiving so I can break out the Christmas music. I love having it on in the car. I love to play it on the piano. I don't love it 24/7 at this stage of the holiday. But it does make me feel more festive and get me ready for the season.
Gratitude Day 25
Day 25 was Black Friday...
I'm grateful for online shopping. Enough said.
I'm grateful for online shopping. Enough said.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Gratitude Day 24
On this Thanksgiving Day, I'm grateful for my Family!
I have an AMAZING family! My Mom, dad and 3 brothers shifted their lives fairly dramatically to accommodate me. I mean I'd barely squeaked out the words, "Can I live here?" before my mom was figuring out where everyone would sleep that night. And the next morning they were up rearranging the entire house to make a space for me(and as much if my stuff as I could carry). And I know it hasn't been easy on any of them(as much as I like to think I'm a joy 100% of the time) to have their 29 year old (they thought I was independent and headstrong when I was 20...) daughter/sister living with them 24/7. But they've been exceptional. The boys don't even make me empty the dishwasher and my mother regularly reassures me that Santa will be able to find me.
My extended family is also AMAZING! Most people didn't know about the ongoing situation. The divorce came as quite a shock to pretty much everyone. In my struggles with my decision, I was concerned that people would judge me for not being able to make my marriage work. My Type A/RED personality doesn't allow Failure and I pretty much felt like a giant FAILURE! But I received encouragement, hugs and more love than I thought it was possible to receive(I also was the happy recipient of a tasty chocolate cheesecake)! I don't know what I did to get to part of such an awesome family, but I'm definitely grateful!
And then there's my "Extended" Family! I've been blessed with the greatest friends on the planet! Many of them, I've known since childhood. Some of them I met in my "wayward" teenage years. And even as I've continued on into adulthood, I've maintained these precious relationships and been blessed with other super awesome people to add to my "family". I'm so grateful for the kind words, the prayers and the hugs(yes, even the hugs...sometimes a girl needs them...even if she has an unexplainable aversion to them)!
My life would absolutely be empty and lackluster without all of my AMAZING(generous, loving, selfless, supportive...insert really awesome adjective here) FAMILY!!! I am so grateful!
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I have an AMAZING family! My Mom, dad and 3 brothers shifted their lives fairly dramatically to accommodate me. I mean I'd barely squeaked out the words, "Can I live here?" before my mom was figuring out where everyone would sleep that night. And the next morning they were up rearranging the entire house to make a space for me(and as much if my stuff as I could carry). And I know it hasn't been easy on any of them(as much as I like to think I'm a joy 100% of the time) to have their 29 year old (they thought I was independent and headstrong when I was 20...) daughter/sister living with them 24/7. But they've been exceptional. The boys don't even make me empty the dishwasher and my mother regularly reassures me that Santa will be able to find me.
My extended family is also AMAZING! Most people didn't know about the ongoing situation. The divorce came as quite a shock to pretty much everyone. In my struggles with my decision, I was concerned that people would judge me for not being able to make my marriage work. My Type A/RED personality doesn't allow Failure and I pretty much felt like a giant FAILURE! But I received encouragement, hugs and more love than I thought it was possible to receive(I also was the happy recipient of a tasty chocolate cheesecake)! I don't know what I did to get to part of such an awesome family, but I'm definitely grateful!
And then there's my "Extended" Family! I've been blessed with the greatest friends on the planet! Many of them, I've known since childhood. Some of them I met in my "wayward" teenage years. And even as I've continued on into adulthood, I've maintained these precious relationships and been blessed with other super awesome people to add to my "family". I'm so grateful for the kind words, the prayers and the hugs(yes, even the hugs...sometimes a girl needs them...even if she has an unexplainable aversion to them)!
My life would absolutely be empty and lackluster without all of my AMAZING(generous, loving, selfless, supportive...insert really awesome adjective here) FAMILY!!! I am so grateful!
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Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Gratitude Day 23

I'm so grateful for the temple. I'm especially grateful that it is so close by! Living out of state and having at least a 2 hour drive to the temple, really makes you appreciate what we can so easily take for granted along the wasatch front.
Going to the temple clears my mind, eases my heavy heart and gives me the strength to do a little more. I love it!
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Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Gratitude Day 22
This might sound really vain...you've been warned!
I'm grateful for my hair! No. It's true. I haven't always been, that's for sure. Years of sleeping in curlers and having your mom scalp you every morning(well, it felt that way to my 6 year old head) only to get to puberty and have your whole dead go poodle on you, makes you resent your hair a little.
After it started curling like crazy on it's own, I was grateful for styling products. Aussie Scrunch Spray gel was one of my go-tos, as well as Herbal Essence Spray Gel(which actually what I still use to this day, although it's been reformulated a number of times). It is sometimes difficult to find the right product for my hair. I've tried some of the more expensive ones, and they do a great job...but I have so much hair, it's really not economical in any way.
The inventor of the straight iron deserves a national holiday. Having curly hair as a teen was miserable for me. So few people had curly hair, particularly as curly as mine. Straight was always in. I remember my first flat iron. My friend, Jodi, gave it to me for Christmas. As weird as this will sound... Life Changing Gift!
The one I have today is a power little devil and can tame my hair without breaking a sweat! That, in conjunction with a hair routine I have carefully honed over the years, enables me to have soft, silky, run my fingers through hair.(seriously have you ever tried to "run your fingers" through curly gel-encrusted hair?)
Not that I don't love my curly hair. We've been around the block a few times and I no longer resent it. Actually, it's great now that I know how to tame it. First, I make sure I get a hair cut from someone who knows curly hair. It makes a big difference. Right now, I go to my cousin Alexa at Garden Day Spa. She has curly hair. She totally gets it. I hope she cuts hair forever(it's also nice because it's never awkward hair chair chit chat). I don't do my hair curly everyday for several reasons. I have a tendency to get product build up. I can't go as long between washes when it's curly(due to product and the frizzier, less tamed nature). And washing everyday is not something my hair loves. It's much healthier and happier if it gets a few days break.
But I do like the variety that my hair offers. It's like my 2 personalities. I'll let you guess what those might be. I bet you start paying closer attention to my hair and the way I act.
We've had our share if tangles(ha ha I'm so funny), but I'm grateful for my hair!
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I'm grateful for my hair! No. It's true. I haven't always been, that's for sure. Years of sleeping in curlers and having your mom scalp you every morning(well, it felt that way to my 6 year old head) only to get to puberty and have your whole dead go poodle on you, makes you resent your hair a little.
After it started curling like crazy on it's own, I was grateful for styling products. Aussie Scrunch Spray gel was one of my go-tos, as well as Herbal Essence Spray Gel(which actually what I still use to this day, although it's been reformulated a number of times). It is sometimes difficult to find the right product for my hair. I've tried some of the more expensive ones, and they do a great job...but I have so much hair, it's really not economical in any way.
The inventor of the straight iron deserves a national holiday. Having curly hair as a teen was miserable for me. So few people had curly hair, particularly as curly as mine. Straight was always in. I remember my first flat iron. My friend, Jodi, gave it to me for Christmas. As weird as this will sound... Life Changing Gift!
The one I have today is a power little devil and can tame my hair without breaking a sweat! That, in conjunction with a hair routine I have carefully honed over the years, enables me to have soft, silky, run my fingers through hair.(seriously have you ever tried to "run your fingers" through curly gel-encrusted hair?)
Not that I don't love my curly hair. We've been around the block a few times and I no longer resent it. Actually, it's great now that I know how to tame it. First, I make sure I get a hair cut from someone who knows curly hair. It makes a big difference. Right now, I go to my cousin Alexa at Garden Day Spa. She has curly hair. She totally gets it. I hope she cuts hair forever(it's also nice because it's never awkward hair chair chit chat). I don't do my hair curly everyday for several reasons. I have a tendency to get product build up. I can't go as long between washes when it's curly(due to product and the frizzier, less tamed nature). And washing everyday is not something my hair loves. It's much healthier and happier if it gets a few days break.
But I do like the variety that my hair offers. It's like my 2 personalities. I'll let you guess what those might be. I bet you start paying closer attention to my hair and the way I act.
We've had our share if tangles(ha ha I'm so funny), but I'm grateful for my hair!
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Monday, November 21, 2011
Gratitude Day 21
I'm grateful for my iPhone's iPod shuffling capabilities. No I don't want to listen to songs in order. Not only that, but I want it to read my mood and choose appropriate artists and songs.
I tell you, I should probably be creeped out a little, but tonight it was spot on. John Mayer, Billy Joel and of course some Barenaked Ladies! Epic shuffling, I tell you what!
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I tell you, I should probably be creeped out a little, but tonight it was spot on. John Mayer, Billy Joel and of course some Barenaked Ladies! Epic shuffling, I tell you what!
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Sunday, November 20, 2011
Gratitude Day 20
Today I am so grateful for inspired church leaders. The talks in church today were specially chosen for me, I have no doubt. Listening to others speak about Tender Mercies and Gratitude lifted my heart and made me that much more grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows our needs, especially when we might think we need something else, and attends to each us in a very personal way.
I never would have thought or imagined that I would have gone through so much by the age of 29. But I am so absolutely grateful that I have. I don't regret my decisions. At the time, they were the ones I needed to make. I needed these experiences to make me into the person I am today. I needed to go through these trials and learn these lessons so that I could be better prepared for... I'm not sure exactly what it is, but I know it will be amazing.
I've already seen so many blessings pouring out in the last few weeks, and I know more await. I know that as I continue to be faithful and find joy in the journey, that I will continue to be blessed in ways I can not possibly imagine. I know this, because I've already seen it in my life. I know that when I put my faith and trust in the Lord and His plan for me, that everything just takes care of itself. When I try to fight against the path I need to take, things are much more difficult. I usually end up where I need to be, but it takes much longer and the process is much more agonizing.
Someone in church today made a comment that struck me. They said something about happy people are thankful people. You'll never see someone who is happy, who is not also full of gratitude. So, I decided...Even after November is over, I'm going to keep up my daily gratitudes on the Blog. Not forever, I'm sure you'll all grow tired of that. But until the Divorce is finalized(so approximately the end of January). Because I have so much for which to be thankful. And I know that this trial isn't at it's end yet, and I need to be happy. And Happy people are Grateful people!
I never would have thought or imagined that I would have gone through so much by the age of 29. But I am so absolutely grateful that I have. I don't regret my decisions. At the time, they were the ones I needed to make. I needed these experiences to make me into the person I am today. I needed to go through these trials and learn these lessons so that I could be better prepared for... I'm not sure exactly what it is, but I know it will be amazing.
I've already seen so many blessings pouring out in the last few weeks, and I know more await. I know that as I continue to be faithful and find joy in the journey, that I will continue to be blessed in ways I can not possibly imagine. I know this, because I've already seen it in my life. I know that when I put my faith and trust in the Lord and His plan for me, that everything just takes care of itself. When I try to fight against the path I need to take, things are much more difficult. I usually end up where I need to be, but it takes much longer and the process is much more agonizing.
Someone in church today made a comment that struck me. They said something about happy people are thankful people. You'll never see someone who is happy, who is not also full of gratitude. So, I decided...Even after November is over, I'm going to keep up my daily gratitudes on the Blog. Not forever, I'm sure you'll all grow tired of that. But until the Divorce is finalized(so approximately the end of January). Because I have so much for which to be thankful. And I know that this trial isn't at it's end yet, and I need to be happy. And Happy people are Grateful people!
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Gratitude Day 19
I'm grateful for pants that fit! I finally managed to find some today! I've been on the search for just the right ones(at just the right price, because let's be honest, I'm cheap). And today my mom and I were at Layton Hills Mall and hit the Pants-That-Fit-Wendi Jackpot! New York and Company had a pair of kind of dressy pants that are super cute and fit(though I won't tell you the size because there would rioting)! And then Charlotte Russe came through in the Jeans department! I got two pair there(thanks mommy!) because one of them was only $7.50 and the other was $15! Hooray! I won't have to continue to live in shame as my pants slowly fall down around my ankles(some of you may be disappointed...you'll survive).
Now I just need a reason/place to wear them!(and my cute new shirts from H&M...but that's another post altogether)
Now I just need a reason/place to wear them!(and my cute new shirts from H&M...but that's another post altogether)
Gratitude Day 18
I'm grateful for winter and snow. I don't love driving in it. It sure is awfully cold. And quite frankly, I'd be pretty content if after January, it just stayed up in the mountains. But it is pretty after a fresh snow. And it does mean I'll get to ski soon(or rather spend hours tumbling down the hills). And I love winter clothes! I love sweaters and boots(not the sensible snow kind, but still)! And I love Hot Chocolate(I definitely have not had enough of that this year)!
So while I might not adore the snow. I am grateful for it and the changes it brings!
So while I might not adore the snow. I am grateful for it and the changes it brings!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Gratitude Day 17
I'm grateful for food. Yes. I eat. I'm not anorexic. Yes. I have recently experienced a little weight loss. You go through my recent stress and see if your body doesn't change a little. This just happens to be how my body responds to stress. Fine. Sometimes I don't eat as much or as often as I should. Once again, when I'm stressed, I just don't have much of an appetite. But I do like to eat. And I'm not some kind of health freak. Granted, I don't have as much of a sweet tooth as others, but we all have our weaknesses. One of mine just came back for the holidays...White Chocolate Covered Oreos.
I could eat boxes and boxes of these.
I do have fairly decent self control. And I have been exercising lately(as in yesterday and then I'm trying a Zumba class today). And yes. I would like to stay thin. Not THIS thin, but thin.
I'm particularly excited about tonight's dinner. My mom is making Cafe Rio Pork. Really tasty! I'll only eat one. But not because I'm watching my weight. Because the tacos are really big and that's all I can eat without wanting to vomit. I'm pretty sure that dish would be very unpleasant in reverse.
So yes. Today I am grateful for food. I'm excited for the holiday season because it means some of my favorite treats. And I will eat quantities of them. Look for me after New Years and things have calmed down. If I'm still too thin by February, you can all start planning the Intervention.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Gratitude Day 16
I am so grateful for Adobe Lightroom. Sometimes as a photographer (or just in everyday life), I make stupid little mistakes. Fortunately, Lightroom makes it easy to fix these(for photography...not everyday mistakes). It's super easy to use and takes care of a lot of things!
Love it!
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Love it!
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Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Gratitude Day 15
Today I am really grateful for classical music. It was a rough day. But I played a little Debussy and some Puccini and everything just lined up in my brain and it was so elegantly simple(yes. Debussy...elegantly simple...I promise).
It just helped clear my mind and made me relax. I love it!
It just helped clear my mind and made me relax. I love it!
Gratitude Day 14
For Day 14, I'm grateful for the opportunity I have to be the lucky "Oldest Child" in my family. It's a heavy burden, but someone must carry it. I love when my younger siblings come to me for advice (I usually explain that I make mistakes so that THEY don't have to, I'm just generous that way), or for help with a project. It's a lot of pressure knowing how much they look up to me and watch me closely to see what choices I'm making. Not going to lie, it's a little stressful sometimes. I like taking care of them when they are sick or sad or struggling with something. I love to see each of them grow as they go through particular challenges in their lives.
Of course, I love torturing them endlessly when they do goofy things! (It's all good, they do it right back) I was worried when I decided to go ahead with the divorce that somehow I would lose respect or something, but not at all. I'm so grateful that they all understand the difficult choice I had and more than that, they understand why it was so important that I make it.
I love being the oldest! And I think I do it pretty well. I guess I was just born bossy. :)
Of course, I love torturing them endlessly when they do goofy things! (It's all good, they do it right back) I was worried when I decided to go ahead with the divorce that somehow I would lose respect or something, but not at all. I'm so grateful that they all understand the difficult choice I had and more than that, they understand why it was so important that I make it.
I love being the oldest! And I think I do it pretty well. I guess I was just born bossy. :)
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Gratitude Day 13
As I sit here thinking through all the things that I'm grateful for, that really wouldn't make a good post...I get the feeling this is just going to be a random blog post. Good luck with that...
Random Gratitudes....(in no particular order...just as they pop into my head)
Jamba Juice....Not really sure why...except that I love them...and it sounds really good right now.
Blankets...basements tend to be kind of chilly in the winter....but I don't mind because I LOVE blankets
Sweatpants...because some days are just comfy days
Full Episodes Online...due to the show, I've been having to keep up with shows online...it makes me happy
Music...I'm always grateful for this, but particularly when I'm agitated and something is bothering me, I can always count on music to help me feel better.
My iPhone...honestly, I have a love/hate relationship with that thing...but I love having a phone to call and text my favorite people with
Cute Glasses....because I have awful vision and sometimes I don't want to wear contacts!
My Pink Sony VAIO...Seriously love it!
Chocolate...I can tell it's going to be one of those weeks...bring it on
Soup...when it's cold outside, you can heat up your insides
Allergy Pills....now if I only remembered to take them when I know I'm going to need them
Movie Nights...for when you and your friends don't want to do anything
My Car...I like to go places...in High School I didn't have one...living with my parents again makes me realize how grateful I am to have my own car(which is not to say that I don't like living with my parents or that I use it to escape...it just means that last time around when I lived here, I didn't have my own car and unlimited acess and often had to share and always had to ask permission...not so much now)
Michael Buble....do I really need to elaborate?
Playing the Piano....it's cheaper and less painful than therapy
Lily's Eyes from The Secret Garden....seriously guys, sing this and girls will melt for you. That's a guarantee
My Camera...ooh! I should edit some pictures!
Sunday Afternoon Naps....though I probably should've made it a little shorter and just gone to bed earlier so I wasn't up all hyper and productive at 11:00 at night....
Normal Sleeping Schedule...I'd like mine back please
Deodorant....trust me...work at a Junior High and you'll be grateful too...also for parents who teach their kids to use it
And quite frankly, the thing I'm most often grateful for is a Fresh Start. I'm ready for my next great adventure, whatever it might be. I know it's going to be amazing and help sculpt me into an even more Super Awesome person!
Random Gratitudes....(in no particular order...just as they pop into my head)
Jamba Juice....Not really sure why...except that I love them...and it sounds really good right now.
Blankets...basements tend to be kind of chilly in the winter....but I don't mind because I LOVE blankets
Sweatpants...because some days are just comfy days
Full Episodes Online...due to the show, I've been having to keep up with shows online...it makes me happy
Music...I'm always grateful for this, but particularly when I'm agitated and something is bothering me, I can always count on music to help me feel better.
My iPhone...honestly, I have a love/hate relationship with that thing...but I love having a phone to call and text my favorite people with
Cute Glasses....because I have awful vision and sometimes I don't want to wear contacts!
My Pink Sony VAIO...Seriously love it!
Chocolate...I can tell it's going to be one of those weeks...bring it on
Soup...when it's cold outside, you can heat up your insides
Allergy Pills....now if I only remembered to take them when I know I'm going to need them
Movie Nights...for when you and your friends don't want to do anything
My Car...I like to go places...in High School I didn't have one...living with my parents again makes me realize how grateful I am to have my own car(which is not to say that I don't like living with my parents or that I use it to escape...it just means that last time around when I lived here, I didn't have my own car and unlimited acess and often had to share and always had to ask permission...not so much now)
Michael Buble....do I really need to elaborate?
Playing the Piano....it's cheaper and less painful than therapy
Lily's Eyes from The Secret Garden....seriously guys, sing this and girls will melt for you. That's a guarantee
My Camera...ooh! I should edit some pictures!
Sunday Afternoon Naps....though I probably should've made it a little shorter and just gone to bed earlier so I wasn't up all hyper and productive at 11:00 at night....
Normal Sleeping Schedule...I'd like mine back please
Deodorant....trust me...work at a Junior High and you'll be grateful too...also for parents who teach their kids to use it
And quite frankly, the thing I'm most often grateful for is a Fresh Start. I'm ready for my next great adventure, whatever it might be. I know it's going to be amazing and help sculpt me into an even more Super Awesome person!
Gratitude Day 12
So the new H&M store at Fashion Place Mall opened up last Friday. I had to teach. So Angie and I made plans to go out Saturday to do some shopping(so grateful I had the foresight to ask for gift cards for my birthday).
We got out there and the mall was PACKED! Seriously I've done Disneyland with fewer people. There was a LINE to get INTO the store. I estimate it was about 2 hours long. Yup. Not going to happen.
So on Day 12, I'm grateful my mom raised me to use my brain. H&M, I'll be back!
We got out there and the mall was PACKED! Seriously I've done Disneyland with fewer people. There was a LINE to get INTO the store. I estimate it was about 2 hours long. Yup. Not going to happen.
So on Day 12, I'm grateful my mom raised me to use my brain. H&M, I'll be back!
Gratitude Day 11
I know that on Veterans Day, I should post about how grateful I am for all the men and women who have served our country. I am definitely grateful for the sacrifices made. But I'd already kind of formulated my post for this day...
November 11th, this last Friday, was closing night for Sleepy Hollow. So I decided that for Day 11, it should be my post. (I'm a little behind because it's been such a crazy weekend) Being in Sleepy Hollow wasn't really easy for me. As many of you know, I played Daemon, or the Headless Horseman's Horse. In the show, part of the legend involves Deitrich and Sabine, two of the townspeople. They ran off to get marriend and were turned into the Headless Horseman and his Horse, Daemon, by a witch from their village. But yep, I played a horse. The costume was really cool(though really difficult to dance in) and in the end, when the curse is lifted, I transform back into a human. Just a little back story.
For this role, I was onstage for a grand total of 3 minutes. I put a lot of work into this role. The dancing wasn't hard...except I had a big leather horse head strapped on. And it was an amazing opportunity to work with Jim Christian(who incidentally wrote the musical and directed). I feel very fortunate. I did my share(okay maybe more than my share) of whining because it was more than a little difficult to be in a show for only 3 minutes.
But I am absolutely grateful for this show for so many reasons. First, I haven't done a show in about 3 1/2 years. It was great to get back into the theater circle. I know that "theater people" can be a lot to handle, but, well, I'm a theater person. What can I say? I actually love it. I'm not a super social person, but I loved hanging out with my cast every night! We enjoyed one another's company so much that we often hung out after the show as well. (I'm old and can not stay up as late as I used to...at least not without serious repercussions) Second, it gave me something to do. The divorce was initiated just a couple days after we opened the show. I can't tell you how great it was to have the show as a distraction. It was something I could always look forward to. I knew what I was doing in the evenings and didn't have to worry about being lonely. Which leads me to number Three.... I made some great friends doing this show! As I find myself gearing up for the single life once again, I wondered where I was going to meet people and make new friends. And the theater is an easy answer. I already had something in common with these people. Now don't get me wrong, I didn't get along with everyone there. But there are definitely some friends I made that I plan to keep in touch with. They were a great strength to me during the last few rough weeks. I'm not much of a hugger(yes, I know, I have issues...it's something I'm working on), but even I need/want them sometimes. And I never had to look far at the theater. There was always someone ready to put their arm around me and ask how things were going or tell me how great they thought I was. It really lifted my spirits and I'm forever grateful for all the love and kindness that I was shown by these awesome people.
Now that it's over, I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I have about 3 weeks before my next audition. (I'll keep you posted, not to worry) I'm trying to keep myself busy. And while I don't love huge groups of people, I do like to be with people and be social. (someone plan a party before I go crazy) Good thing I have my friends from before the show and my friends from the show to keep me entertained! (Right guys? Right?!)
Seriously I'm so grateful for Sleepy Hollow!
November 11th, this last Friday, was closing night for Sleepy Hollow. So I decided that for Day 11, it should be my post. (I'm a little behind because it's been such a crazy weekend) Being in Sleepy Hollow wasn't really easy for me. As many of you know, I played Daemon, or the Headless Horseman's Horse. In the show, part of the legend involves Deitrich and Sabine, two of the townspeople. They ran off to get marriend and were turned into the Headless Horseman and his Horse, Daemon, by a witch from their village. But yep, I played a horse. The costume was really cool(though really difficult to dance in) and in the end, when the curse is lifted, I transform back into a human. Just a little back story.
For this role, I was onstage for a grand total of 3 minutes. I put a lot of work into this role. The dancing wasn't hard...except I had a big leather horse head strapped on. And it was an amazing opportunity to work with Jim Christian(who incidentally wrote the musical and directed). I feel very fortunate. I did my share(okay maybe more than my share) of whining because it was more than a little difficult to be in a show for only 3 minutes.
But I am absolutely grateful for this show for so many reasons. First, I haven't done a show in about 3 1/2 years. It was great to get back into the theater circle. I know that "theater people" can be a lot to handle, but, well, I'm a theater person. What can I say? I actually love it. I'm not a super social person, but I loved hanging out with my cast every night! We enjoyed one another's company so much that we often hung out after the show as well. (I'm old and can not stay up as late as I used to...at least not without serious repercussions) Second, it gave me something to do. The divorce was initiated just a couple days after we opened the show. I can't tell you how great it was to have the show as a distraction. It was something I could always look forward to. I knew what I was doing in the evenings and didn't have to worry about being lonely. Which leads me to number Three.... I made some great friends doing this show! As I find myself gearing up for the single life once again, I wondered where I was going to meet people and make new friends. And the theater is an easy answer. I already had something in common with these people. Now don't get me wrong, I didn't get along with everyone there. But there are definitely some friends I made that I plan to keep in touch with. They were a great strength to me during the last few rough weeks. I'm not much of a hugger(yes, I know, I have issues...it's something I'm working on), but even I need/want them sometimes. And I never had to look far at the theater. There was always someone ready to put their arm around me and ask how things were going or tell me how great they thought I was. It really lifted my spirits and I'm forever grateful for all the love and kindness that I was shown by these awesome people.
Now that it's over, I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I have about 3 weeks before my next audition. (I'll keep you posted, not to worry) I'm trying to keep myself busy. And while I don't love huge groups of people, I do like to be with people and be social. (someone plan a party before I go crazy) Good thing I have my friends from before the show and my friends from the show to keep me entertained! (Right guys? Right?!)
Seriously I'm so grateful for Sleepy Hollow!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Gratitude Day 10
The day isn't quite over yet. But I foresee being very grateful for Tylenol by the end. On my way over to the theater, I recognized the early pangs of a headache.
Now I'm lying on the couch in the green room, anticipating my 3 minutes of glory, with a throbbing headache. I'm none too happy about it. And I'm without drugs. It's going to be a long night.
And tomorrow I sub Jr High Band. Yes I think today I will be very grateful for Tylenol!
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Now I'm lying on the couch in the green room, anticipating my 3 minutes of glory, with a throbbing headache. I'm none too happy about it. And I'm without drugs. It's going to be a long night.
And tomorrow I sub Jr High Band. Yes I think today I will be very grateful for Tylenol!
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Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Gratitude Day 9
I realized that days 7 and 8 were very similar. Forgive me. Apparently sleep related things are incredibly important to me. That and I've been a little loopy as of late.
Today I am striving for a little more variety. Also, this is one I should have done a long time ago.
I am oh so, indescribably grateful for my mother. I've moved back home. Turned life there upside down and really don't even know how to express my thanks for everything. She's been so patient as I continually bring more things to the house(even though there isn't room). She hasn't mentioned how the late hours I've been keeping(thank you Sleepy Hollow), have undoubtedly disrupted her sleep cycles. She fixes me tasty meals and tries to keep me healthy(let us not mention recent weight loss, ok). She's packed and carried boxes. She's rearranged her house and her life.
And she doesn't complain. That's pretty much unconditional love in action right there.
I don't have the words to express how truly grateful I am. Thank you mom! You're the best!
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Today I am striving for a little more variety. Also, this is one I should have done a long time ago.
I am oh so, indescribably grateful for my mother. I've moved back home. Turned life there upside down and really don't even know how to express my thanks for everything. She's been so patient as I continually bring more things to the house(even though there isn't room). She hasn't mentioned how the late hours I've been keeping(thank you Sleepy Hollow), have undoubtedly disrupted her sleep cycles. She fixes me tasty meals and tries to keep me healthy(let us not mention recent weight loss, ok). She's packed and carried boxes. She's rearranged her house and her life.
And she doesn't complain. That's pretty much unconditional love in action right there.
I don't have the words to express how truly grateful I am. Thank you mom! You're the best!
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Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Gratitude Day 8
Today I am grateful for sleep. Sometimes you don't realize how important something is until you don't get it. And I've been not getting a lot of sleep recently. Yes. That's mostly my own fault. And after this weekend, it probably won't be as much of an issue because the show will be over.
But today I am grateful for sleep. I took a bit of a nap this afternoon and that's helped me feel so much better. And I'm looking forward to a good night's rest tonight! Here's to a much more engergized Wendi tomorrow!
But today I am grateful for sleep. I took a bit of a nap this afternoon and that's helped me feel so much better. And I'm looking forward to a good night's rest tonight! Here's to a much more engergized Wendi tomorrow!
Gratitude Day 7
I know I'm falling a little behind. Yesterday(Monday) was a really busy day.
Yesterday I was really grateful for nap time. Not my nap time, mind you. I watch two little kiddies(almost 2 year old boy and a 2 month old girl) for my friend Lacee, while she works a few days a month. Yesterday was one of those days. I was not feeling top notch. I think kids have a sense about these things too. Wilson was being more difficult than usual. By the time nap time rolled around, I was definitely ready. Fortunately they were too. Wilson actually slept for quite some time. and Gretchen, well she didn't sleep quite as well, but she's a pretty good baby and sat in the swing. I didn't nap(though I definitely could have used one), but I did kind of kick back and relax for a bit.
So definitely grateful for nap time!
Yesterday I was really grateful for nap time. Not my nap time, mind you. I watch two little kiddies(almost 2 year old boy and a 2 month old girl) for my friend Lacee, while she works a few days a month. Yesterday was one of those days. I was not feeling top notch. I think kids have a sense about these things too. Wilson was being more difficult than usual. By the time nap time rolled around, I was definitely ready. Fortunately they were too. Wilson actually slept for quite some time. and Gretchen, well she didn't sleep quite as well, but she's a pretty good baby and sat in the swing. I didn't nap(though I definitely could have used one), but I did kind of kick back and relax for a bit.
So definitely grateful for nap time!
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Gratitude Day 6
I am so grateful for music in my life! My life would be hollow and empty without it. When I'm singing, playing or listening to music, I feel alive; I feel whole.
And music expresses things do much better than I can. Here's one of my favorite pieces. I can't sing it right now without getting choked up, but I love it!!!
How Many Tears?
From Martin Guerre (musical)
Oh Lord, I'm not the one to blame.
Oh Lord, why must I live in shame?
Each night I light a candle in his name.
How many tears through the years must I cry?
How many prayers to the Lord must I try?
Still the pain tears at my broken heart.
Sometimes I feel I was cursed from the start.
All I could hold, all I could see,
So full of promise, each day reaching out before me.
Once... Now there's nothing,
Lost as if you never saw me.
How many tears through the years can I cry?
How many tears until my heart runs dry, through the fights that a girl needs to fight
Only to do what she feels must be right.
Sometimes I wonder if someone hears.
Why must I live through so many tears?
Amazing, right?! And the melody is beautiful!
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And music expresses things do much better than I can. Here's one of my favorite pieces. I can't sing it right now without getting choked up, but I love it!!!
How Many Tears?
From Martin Guerre (musical)
Oh Lord, I'm not the one to blame.
Oh Lord, why must I live in shame?
Each night I light a candle in his name.
How many tears through the years must I cry?
How many prayers to the Lord must I try?
Still the pain tears at my broken heart.
Sometimes I feel I was cursed from the start.
All I could hold, all I could see,
So full of promise, each day reaching out before me.
Once... Now there's nothing,
Lost as if you never saw me.
How many tears through the years can I cry?
How many tears until my heart runs dry, through the fights that a girl needs to fight
Only to do what she feels must be right.
Sometimes I wonder if someone hears.
Why must I live through so many tears?
Amazing, right?! And the melody is beautiful!
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Gratitude Day 5
I'm not going to lie, this post is going to sound a little odd. Just preare yourself now.
Yesterday(Saturday, the official 5th Day of Gratitude), I decided to be grateful that I'm not in charge. I'm grateful that I don't always have control over what happens in life. I'm grateful for the unknown. I'm grateful that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and does what is necessary to help me find what I need.
I can say with a great deal of confidence that if everything went the way I had planned, my life would pretty much be a disaster. Some of you might think, "Wait, it's not a disaster"? No. Not even a little. Sure, when I'm in the middle of trying to get things straightened out and take care of all the little details, it does feel awfully crazy. BUT, when I step back and look at my life, right this minute, it's actually really, really great.
I have everything I could possibly think of needing and somethings I would never have thought of needing, but desperately do. I am honestly so grateful for a Heaven Father who blesses me endlessly and takes care of all the little details and throws in a few surprises too. My life is infintely easier when I just place my faith and trust in Him and let Him take care of things. When I try to get in the way and steer the boat the way I want to, well, things get awfully rocky.
So on the 5th day of gratitude (and every day, really) I am eternally grateful for those things I didn't see coming.
Yesterday(Saturday, the official 5th Day of Gratitude), I decided to be grateful that I'm not in charge. I'm grateful that I don't always have control over what happens in life. I'm grateful for the unknown. I'm grateful that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and does what is necessary to help me find what I need.
I can say with a great deal of confidence that if everything went the way I had planned, my life would pretty much be a disaster. Some of you might think, "Wait, it's not a disaster"? No. Not even a little. Sure, when I'm in the middle of trying to get things straightened out and take care of all the little details, it does feel awfully crazy. BUT, when I step back and look at my life, right this minute, it's actually really, really great.
I have everything I could possibly think of needing and somethings I would never have thought of needing, but desperately do. I am honestly so grateful for a Heaven Father who blesses me endlessly and takes care of all the little details and throws in a few surprises too. My life is infintely easier when I just place my faith and trust in Him and let Him take care of things. When I try to get in the way and steer the boat the way I want to, well, things get awfully rocky.
So on the 5th day of gratitude (and every day, really) I am eternally grateful for those things I didn't see coming.
Gratitude Day 4
While I'm grateful for ALL my wonderful family, on Friday(which was the 4th day....I've been really busy), I felt extra special love and gratitude for some extra awesome family members.
The divorce has meant a lot of change. I've spent the last couple weeks working on the details of the divorce, as well as putting things together for my new life as a single woman. It's been a lot of hard work; a lot of tears; a lot of heartache. I've been under a lot of stress, but it's nothing to the chest-crushing, suffocating stress I've been experiencing for the last two years. There were a lot of things I'm still trying to work out, but I have some awesome family that would bend over backwards, upside down, side ways and generally become contortionists to help me out.
Friday afternoon, my family and I packed up my allocation of personal property from the house. Until a week prior, I was planning to just rent a storage unit. It was another expense I wasn't thrilled about having to add to my monthly spending, but was necessary...or so I thought. Then, my super-hero uncle, Anthony(seriously Karalynn, thank you so much for marrying someone so awesome), said they had storage in their basement and they would move things around so they could put my stuff there. I was astonished and absolutely overwhelmed by the generosity(I've trained myself not to cry in public so I was completely embarrassed). I said I had some bigger furniture pieces along with boxes of stuff. He told me not to worry; that it was a done deal. Seriously he wasn't going to take no for an answer(from me or the stuff he would have to rearrange to make room).
They came with their truck Friday afternoon. And within a few hours, we were all packed up and done with that part of the awfulness.
This was such a tiny thing on the long list I have of stuff I have to do to move on with life, but it was such a burden they relieved. Karalynn even told me that I was welcome to come stay with them if I ever get uncomfortable at the Home Ward(and yes, that is a little weird). So many people have made similar offers, and every time it happens, my spirit soars and I think of how blessed I am to have such amazingly generous people in my life!
The divorce has meant a lot of change. I've spent the last couple weeks working on the details of the divorce, as well as putting things together for my new life as a single woman. It's been a lot of hard work; a lot of tears; a lot of heartache. I've been under a lot of stress, but it's nothing to the chest-crushing, suffocating stress I've been experiencing for the last two years. There were a lot of things I'm still trying to work out, but I have some awesome family that would bend over backwards, upside down, side ways and generally become contortionists to help me out.
Friday afternoon, my family and I packed up my allocation of personal property from the house. Until a week prior, I was planning to just rent a storage unit. It was another expense I wasn't thrilled about having to add to my monthly spending, but was necessary...or so I thought. Then, my super-hero uncle, Anthony(seriously Karalynn, thank you so much for marrying someone so awesome), said they had storage in their basement and they would move things around so they could put my stuff there. I was astonished and absolutely overwhelmed by the generosity(I've trained myself not to cry in public so I was completely embarrassed). I said I had some bigger furniture pieces along with boxes of stuff. He told me not to worry; that it was a done deal. Seriously he wasn't going to take no for an answer(from me or the stuff he would have to rearrange to make room).
They came with their truck Friday afternoon. And within a few hours, we were all packed up and done with that part of the awfulness.
This was such a tiny thing on the long list I have of stuff I have to do to move on with life, but it was such a burden they relieved. Karalynn even told me that I was welcome to come stay with them if I ever get uncomfortable at the Home Ward(and yes, that is a little weird). So many people have made similar offers, and every time it happens, my spirit soars and I think of how blessed I am to have such amazingly generous people in my life!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Gratitude Day 3
Today I am grateful for the weather we had. Seriously the day was so beautiful! The sky was really blue. The temperature wasn't that cold(I'm trying not to think about what might be coming this weekend). And the leaves on the trees were colorful and vibrant. Driving up to the University of Utah, I was in awe of the beauty around me, which made me less irritated at the stupid drivers who were also around me.
I love Autumn and not just because my birthday is in October. I love when the leaves change. I love the cooler(but not cold) temperatures.
And today, I just really needed beautiful, cheery weather! I'm so grateful I got my wish!
I love Autumn and not just because my birthday is in October. I love when the leaves change. I love the cooler(but not cold) temperatures.
And today, I just really needed beautiful, cheery weather! I'm so grateful I got my wish!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Gratitude Day 2
You know what this blog needs? Pictures!
For Day 2, I'm grateful for these two...
For Day 2, I'm grateful for these two...
Emma Mouse and Taylorella
I can't imagine loving anything more than I love these two little cuties! I feel so blessed to be their favorite Aunt! Any day, no matter how dark, immediately brightens when either of these girls come to visit! How empty my life would be without these two!
Gratitude Day 1
I know it's already November 2nd, but I wanted to do this little Daily Gratitude thing on my blog. I just didn't have the time yesterday. So I'll post yesterday's and today's by the end of the evening.
Day 1
I have so very many things to be grateful for, which makes it difficult for me to pick one. But I had do and I think I picked a great one for the first day.
I am grateful today, and every day of my life, for the Gospel and my testimony! It is such a pillar in my life. I've seen, first hand, what has happened to people who knock that pillar down: Their lives crumble. I know that without the Gospel in my life, I would not have made it thru the last few years in tact. I'm so grateful that my testimony has been strong enough to help me endure the trials I have faced.
I think I chose the right Gratitude for the first day.
Day 1
I have so very many things to be grateful for, which makes it difficult for me to pick one. But I had do and I think I picked a great one for the first day.
I am grateful today, and every day of my life, for the Gospel and my testimony! It is such a pillar in my life. I've seen, first hand, what has happened to people who knock that pillar down: Their lives crumble. I know that without the Gospel in my life, I would not have made it thru the last few years in tact. I'm so grateful that my testimony has been strong enough to help me endure the trials I have faced.
I think I chose the right Gratitude for the first day.
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