You discover that there's WAY more Unexpected. And you are completely caught off guard. And you just have to shake your head and go, "Fine. I get it. I'll stop trying to prepare and anticipate everything because that's clearly an exercise in futility."
And that's all I have to say about that.
I'm a big tough girl. I tie my own sandals and everything.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
It's That Time Again
Time for another brain dump. I'm trying to empty my brain before I go to sleep. The nights when I have rehearsal, I can usual fall asleep in an efficient manner, and even when I don't, I get pretty high quality sleep because I'm so physically and emotionally wiped out. But today has been a particularly loooong Sunday. I'm a little concerned that I might not be able to get to sleep.
Part of that might be my own fault. I don't know why, but I was So Freaking Exhausted today. I made it thru church okay. Mostly because I was filling in for Primary pianist, which kind of requires me to stay awake. But post-church has been rough. I full on fell asleep this afternoon while making flash cards for my Pharmacy class. Yep. It was that bad. I pulled out the Diet Coke. Hopefully it won't suddenly kick in with a vengence. I didn't drink any past 6:00, so I think I should be okay.
Lindsey and I always try to make it our goal to "make it" to 9:00 before we cave in to our old lady tendencies and go to bed. But by 7:00, we were dead. So we decided to take a walk. We took a nice hour long walk. It was pleasant weather, with the exception of all the smoke in the air. And it killed an hour!
Anyway, I'm definitely tired, but sometimes my brain prevents me from getting to sleep. So I am trying to preempt that with this post.
I desperately need to memorize my Scarlet Pimpernel music. It's really difficult to practice as much as I'd like with roommates. I don't like feeling like I'm bothering people. And since I'm singing Alto/2nd Soprano in this show, I need to sit at the piano a little more than I might normally so I can make sure I'm singing the right notes. I have a few days off from rehearsal this week, so I'm going to try to get that all done this week.
On Friday, one of my days off from rehearsal, I'm going to see Angie in "9 to 5 The Musical" out at Hale. I'm pretty excited about it.
I don't keep Balance Sheets for my life. I just assume that eventually the good, the bad, the ugly, the awesome, it will all balance out. Eventually.
I'm excited to start back playing at the University of Utah this week. I've cleared out binders and I'm ready to go. I haven't played a lot of hard musical theater stuff this summer, so I'm a little worried I'm going to rusty. But I'm sure it won't take long to get back into the swing of things(I hope).
Taking a more passive approach to Facebook has been good for my sanity. I've been much more content with life. And I've felt a lot fewer urges to punch people in the face.
I think I might be a tad too intense. I know. Brand new information. Maybe I take myself too seriously. I know I have incredibly high expectations for myself. I just don't see it changing anytime soon. What has led me to see this in myself again? Oh. You know. I go to school and I'm the quiet kid who sits and studies dutifully and wants to throw things at people when they talk while I'm trying to take a test. I just don't think some of the conversations that happen in the classroom are necessary. And it's not like I'm opposed to a little relaxation. I'm just a very focused person. And I know not everyone is. And then I go to rehearsal. And I must have quite the expression on my face when I'm learning choreography or music because I've had multiple people come up and make comment to me about not looking so sad or smiling or having fun etc. I'm not an unfun person....right? I like to have fun and get to know my castmates. But not at the expense of the production. I just don't do anything half way. And I like to give it my best effort every single time. And in the beginning, especially, that takes more effort and focus. The cast is great. Just sometimes they're a little more social than I would like. I know, it's not like that's hard. I'm not Madame Social Butterfly. I just feel like there's a time and a place for all the jabbering and the process could really be streamlined. I know. I just need to chill out. I am aware that it's my issue.
As a side note, it's been about a year since Sleepy Hollow started rehearsals. We're approaching the year mark since my trip to Disney World. And that means other important dates are coming up. I'll be thirty in less than 2 months. I've come to terms with it. I'm not like super excited, but I don't think I'll end the evening in a drunken stupor. And of course it's coming up on a year since that the divorce process started. Because of this and my upcoming birthday, I've been thinking a lot about how this last year has been going. It's definitely different than any other year of my life. Very different. I would never in a thousand years imagined some of the experiences I've had. But I needed them.
Which leads me to my next thought...Heavenly Father has everything under control. He knows where you need to be. And even when you're stubborn and stupid and take the long route, he still makes sure you get there. And so even when things are rough and I'm frustrated that I'm not where I'd like to be, I know that if it's where I'm supposed to be, I'll get there eventually. I can't control everything that happens around me. I can't control all the choices that people make. But I have faith that Heavenly Father has it covered. What's meant to be, will be. Sometimes it takes longer than we'd like. Sometimes we even have that feeling that it will be a long road. That doesn't always make it easier. I know from experience that things turn out the way they're supposed to. While it still breaks my heart a little(okay a lot) that I don't get to be a mom, I know it's what had to be. And I think it gave me some of the tools I needed to deal with the divorce and being single again.
I still get frustrated. There are things I want so badly. Things I know it's not wrong to want. Things, in fact, that I SHOULD want. And other people have them and take them for granted and whine and complain and neglect their precious responsibilities. And it makes me so angry when I would give up all of my so-called "freedom" as a single woman to have those commitments they are so "burdened" with. And I feel left behind. I feel sometimes like everyone is getting to move on with their life and I'm being left in a Groundhog's Day type scenario, forced to repeat the same lonely moments over and over.
But I'm up to the challenge. Everyday is a new adventure. And I'm not afraid of what might lay ahead. I'm so used to working so hard for everything in my life, that things being difficult don't even phase me anymore. And isn't the things we work the hardest for, that we appreciate and love and treasure the most? Some things are just worth waiting and working for. And if there's anything I've learned how to do from my life experiences, it's how to wait and work. And I definitely don't know how to quit.
Phew. Hopefully that emptied out enough of the weighty items that I'll be able to drift off to happy thoughts and lovely dreams in no time at all.
Part of that might be my own fault. I don't know why, but I was So Freaking Exhausted today. I made it thru church okay. Mostly because I was filling in for Primary pianist, which kind of requires me to stay awake. But post-church has been rough. I full on fell asleep this afternoon while making flash cards for my Pharmacy class. Yep. It was that bad. I pulled out the Diet Coke. Hopefully it won't suddenly kick in with a vengence. I didn't drink any past 6:00, so I think I should be okay.
Lindsey and I always try to make it our goal to "make it" to 9:00 before we cave in to our old lady tendencies and go to bed. But by 7:00, we were dead. So we decided to take a walk. We took a nice hour long walk. It was pleasant weather, with the exception of all the smoke in the air. And it killed an hour!
Anyway, I'm definitely tired, but sometimes my brain prevents me from getting to sleep. So I am trying to preempt that with this post.
I desperately need to memorize my Scarlet Pimpernel music. It's really difficult to practice as much as I'd like with roommates. I don't like feeling like I'm bothering people. And since I'm singing Alto/2nd Soprano in this show, I need to sit at the piano a little more than I might normally so I can make sure I'm singing the right notes. I have a few days off from rehearsal this week, so I'm going to try to get that all done this week.
On Friday, one of my days off from rehearsal, I'm going to see Angie in "9 to 5 The Musical" out at Hale. I'm pretty excited about it.
I don't keep Balance Sheets for my life. I just assume that eventually the good, the bad, the ugly, the awesome, it will all balance out. Eventually.
I'm excited to start back playing at the University of Utah this week. I've cleared out binders and I'm ready to go. I haven't played a lot of hard musical theater stuff this summer, so I'm a little worried I'm going to rusty. But I'm sure it won't take long to get back into the swing of things(I hope).
Taking a more passive approach to Facebook has been good for my sanity. I've been much more content with life. And I've felt a lot fewer urges to punch people in the face.
I think I might be a tad too intense. I know. Brand new information. Maybe I take myself too seriously. I know I have incredibly high expectations for myself. I just don't see it changing anytime soon. What has led me to see this in myself again? Oh. You know. I go to school and I'm the quiet kid who sits and studies dutifully and wants to throw things at people when they talk while I'm trying to take a test. I just don't think some of the conversations that happen in the classroom are necessary. And it's not like I'm opposed to a little relaxation. I'm just a very focused person. And I know not everyone is. And then I go to rehearsal. And I must have quite the expression on my face when I'm learning choreography or music because I've had multiple people come up and make comment to me about not looking so sad or smiling or having fun etc. I'm not an unfun person....right? I like to have fun and get to know my castmates. But not at the expense of the production. I just don't do anything half way. And I like to give it my best effort every single time. And in the beginning, especially, that takes more effort and focus. The cast is great. Just sometimes they're a little more social than I would like. I know, it's not like that's hard. I'm not Madame Social Butterfly. I just feel like there's a time and a place for all the jabbering and the process could really be streamlined. I know. I just need to chill out. I am aware that it's my issue.
As a side note, it's been about a year since Sleepy Hollow started rehearsals. We're approaching the year mark since my trip to Disney World. And that means other important dates are coming up. I'll be thirty in less than 2 months. I've come to terms with it. I'm not like super excited, but I don't think I'll end the evening in a drunken stupor. And of course it's coming up on a year since that the divorce process started. Because of this and my upcoming birthday, I've been thinking a lot about how this last year has been going. It's definitely different than any other year of my life. Very different. I would never in a thousand years imagined some of the experiences I've had. But I needed them.
Which leads me to my next thought...Heavenly Father has everything under control. He knows where you need to be. And even when you're stubborn and stupid and take the long route, he still makes sure you get there. And so even when things are rough and I'm frustrated that I'm not where I'd like to be, I know that if it's where I'm supposed to be, I'll get there eventually. I can't control everything that happens around me. I can't control all the choices that people make. But I have faith that Heavenly Father has it covered. What's meant to be, will be. Sometimes it takes longer than we'd like. Sometimes we even have that feeling that it will be a long road. That doesn't always make it easier. I know from experience that things turn out the way they're supposed to. While it still breaks my heart a little(okay a lot) that I don't get to be a mom, I know it's what had to be. And I think it gave me some of the tools I needed to deal with the divorce and being single again.
I still get frustrated. There are things I want so badly. Things I know it's not wrong to want. Things, in fact, that I SHOULD want. And other people have them and take them for granted and whine and complain and neglect their precious responsibilities. And it makes me so angry when I would give up all of my so-called "freedom" as a single woman to have those commitments they are so "burdened" with. And I feel left behind. I feel sometimes like everyone is getting to move on with their life and I'm being left in a Groundhog's Day type scenario, forced to repeat the same lonely moments over and over.
But I'm up to the challenge. Everyday is a new adventure. And I'm not afraid of what might lay ahead. I'm so used to working so hard for everything in my life, that things being difficult don't even phase me anymore. And isn't the things we work the hardest for, that we appreciate and love and treasure the most? Some things are just worth waiting and working for. And if there's anything I've learned how to do from my life experiences, it's how to wait and work. And I definitely don't know how to quit.
Phew. Hopefully that emptied out enough of the weighty items that I'll be able to drift off to happy thoughts and lovely dreams in no time at all.
Friday, August 17, 2012
It's About to Get Political
On Facebook, I avoid political ranting like the plague. It's not that I'm not political. I mean, come on kids, I have a minor in politics. I do NOT however, like 1) arguing for the sake of arguing or 2) fighting losing battles or 3) alienating people because once every 4 years we all lose the ability to play well with each other and acknowledge that people are different and thus have different opinions.
However, this is MY blog. So I can do whatever I want.
That being said, this is not a bash *insert candidate name here* ad or a *insert candidate name* can do no wrong promo.
I feel very strongly that people need to prepare themselves for the voting process. I'd like to hope that most of you have at least passively kept tabs on things up to this point. But now that we pretty much have confirmed tickets on both Democrat and Republican sides, it's time to get serious.
First things first: Make sure you're registered. I thought that I had done that when I changed my drivers license, but apparently not. So I've got to get on top of that myself. And of course, make sure you know where you're assigned to vote. Know what district you are in so you can be aware of the other items and people on the ballot, not just the "big" ticket items.
I am a firm believer that people should be informed on issues. Now, trying to keep up with every minute detail of every issue that might come up in passing during election season is probably more than most people really want to deal with. But at least take a look at economic policy, foreign policy and other policies that may impact you. For example, if you're on Medicare, you're gonna want to know candidate's plans for that. If you are struggling in the job area, please be aware of how candidates propose to create jobs. And so on and so forth depending on your personal situation. I'm saying at the very MINIMUM you should know what is going on with policies that might effect you directly. Due to the nature of the beast that is Washington, Politics and the United States Government, it's likely that more will impact you than you think, but for starters, pick a handful of topics to research.
I prefer a broad overview of everything. If there are specific policies that tickle my fancy, intrigue me or I believe have a particular application to me, I delve a little deeper. But when it comes time for Presidential debates, I like to have a general idea of what is going on, over all. But that's just me.
Now. When you do your research please Please PLEASE look at a variety of sources. Writing unbiased in politics is very difficult to do. Everyone has an agenda and the media excels and adding crap to the pot, so to speak. I think life is difficult enough without someone creating problems, but I guess that's why I'm not in politics or media. What I'm saying is that what you read in, say the Huffington Post articles is going to vary greatly from say Fox News (and yes I'm aware of the extremes I just picked. I did it on purpose to demonstrate a point). All I'm saying is, look at a variety of sources and a variety of viewpoints. A single article is not going to give you enough information about anything.
Look at the candidate's policy histories. Look at their personal histories. And please keep in mind that politicians are A) Not going to solve all the world's problems and B) Going to say what they need to in order to get elected and C) Have staff that know how to "spin" everything.
One last thing as I ease off my soapbox for the night. Remember that not everyone has the same priorities that you do. Not everyone thinks and analyzes and emphasizes the same things that you do. Even if you're the same religion or go to the same gym or own the same make and model of car. It's okay to be different. And remember that, eventhough you don't agree with the sign in your neighbor's yard or think that your friend is narrow-minded, after November, you're probably going to see them again and want to be friends. Don't be so arrogant as to think your way of thinking is the only way of thinking. Even within parties, people don't always get along. Don't stoop to name calling and belittling. Remember what we learn in Kindergarten.
And... If you don't vote, you don't get to complain. Seriously. If you can't even get your butt to a voting booth to exercise your American Privelege to vote, I don't want to hear it. I don't care what state you live in and whether or not you think your vote "counts". Take part in the Election process or keep your mouth shut.
Okay. I'm done. See how I did that and you're all still friends with me? Right....?
However, this is MY blog. So I can do whatever I want.
That being said, this is not a bash *insert candidate name here* ad or a *insert candidate name* can do no wrong promo.
I feel very strongly that people need to prepare themselves for the voting process. I'd like to hope that most of you have at least passively kept tabs on things up to this point. But now that we pretty much have confirmed tickets on both Democrat and Republican sides, it's time to get serious.
First things first: Make sure you're registered. I thought that I had done that when I changed my drivers license, but apparently not. So I've got to get on top of that myself. And of course, make sure you know where you're assigned to vote. Know what district you are in so you can be aware of the other items and people on the ballot, not just the "big" ticket items.
I am a firm believer that people should be informed on issues. Now, trying to keep up with every minute detail of every issue that might come up in passing during election season is probably more than most people really want to deal with. But at least take a look at economic policy, foreign policy and other policies that may impact you. For example, if you're on Medicare, you're gonna want to know candidate's plans for that. If you are struggling in the job area, please be aware of how candidates propose to create jobs. And so on and so forth depending on your personal situation. I'm saying at the very MINIMUM you should know what is going on with policies that might effect you directly. Due to the nature of the beast that is Washington, Politics and the United States Government, it's likely that more will impact you than you think, but for starters, pick a handful of topics to research.
I prefer a broad overview of everything. If there are specific policies that tickle my fancy, intrigue me or I believe have a particular application to me, I delve a little deeper. But when it comes time for Presidential debates, I like to have a general idea of what is going on, over all. But that's just me.
Now. When you do your research please Please PLEASE look at a variety of sources. Writing unbiased in politics is very difficult to do. Everyone has an agenda and the media excels and adding crap to the pot, so to speak. I think life is difficult enough without someone creating problems, but I guess that's why I'm not in politics or media. What I'm saying is that what you read in, say the Huffington Post articles is going to vary greatly from say Fox News (and yes I'm aware of the extremes I just picked. I did it on purpose to demonstrate a point). All I'm saying is, look at a variety of sources and a variety of viewpoints. A single article is not going to give you enough information about anything.
Look at the candidate's policy histories. Look at their personal histories. And please keep in mind that politicians are A) Not going to solve all the world's problems and B) Going to say what they need to in order to get elected and C) Have staff that know how to "spin" everything.
One last thing as I ease off my soapbox for the night. Remember that not everyone has the same priorities that you do. Not everyone thinks and analyzes and emphasizes the same things that you do. Even if you're the same religion or go to the same gym or own the same make and model of car. It's okay to be different. And remember that, eventhough you don't agree with the sign in your neighbor's yard or think that your friend is narrow-minded, after November, you're probably going to see them again and want to be friends. Don't be so arrogant as to think your way of thinking is the only way of thinking. Even within parties, people don't always get along. Don't stoop to name calling and belittling. Remember what we learn in Kindergarten.
And... If you don't vote, you don't get to complain. Seriously. If you can't even get your butt to a voting booth to exercise your American Privelege to vote, I don't want to hear it. I don't care what state you live in and whether or not you think your vote "counts". Take part in the Election process or keep your mouth shut.
Okay. I'm done. See how I did that and you're all still friends with me? Right....?
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Shall We Be Random? Yes, Yes, I Think We Shall.
Kelly Clarkson is trying to convince you that "What doesn't kill you makes you Stronger." But I propose there's another option "What doesn't kill you makes you more vulnerable to the next attack."
Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night is rarely a good idea. Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night and realizing you don't have a rolling pin...even worse. THEN you get the "brilliant" idea to use one of those big church cannery cans. And it's extra moist out because of the humidity...blah! AND you have the stroke of genius to make your cinnamon rolls in cupcake papers and pans so they're easier to transport and eat at rehearsal tomorrow. It was a HOT MESS in my kitchen (although, still less of a mess than anytime that certain roommate bakes) tonight. My Cast-mates had better appreciate and love these cinnamon rolls!
Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night is still a better idea than putting together your new desk at 10:00 at night. That one will have to wait until tomorrow.
Most of the time, I can convince myself that I can survive the next 50+ years (probably closer to 60+ years considering the awesome genes in the family) without a husband. I mean, really, a lot of things are pretty much the same. I still take care of the budget and the bills, there's just less to work with...on both ends, so that's good. I still cook and clean. I still do laundry. I still grocery shop. I still shop on sale. I still do a lot of the things I did before. But I don't have to share a bed and listen to anyone snore. And I don't have to check in with anyone before I make plans. I don't have to accomodate another person with my cooking. I don't have to deal with in-laws. However, I do have to be the bread-winner. I don't mind working, especially since I know it's a necessity. I don't have anyone else to rely on or lean on in times of crisis. I don't have anyone to pick up the slack when I get really stressed out. I don't have anyone to sit and help me put furniture together or make cinnamon rolls with at 10:00 at night.
I just killed the third giant spider of the day. It is NOT okay. I can deal with the occassional creepy-crawly in the house. But 3 GIANT ones in a single day? I might not sleep tonight. Is it inappropriate to pray for a spider incident-free night? And I'll definitely be spraying the house with bug spray tomorrow. Apparently with the draught, we should all be expecting to see more of the precious little darlings. *shudder*
Jaw tension is the bane of my existence right now. Apparently, with all the stress of the last couple years, I've been clenching my jaw while I sleep AND now that I'm aware of the problem, I catch myself doing it during the day too. And it is wreaking havoc with my singing. Now that I've caught on to the problem, I'm working to solve it. But it is HARD work! I wake up every morning and do jaw wiggling and loosening exercises. I look like a crazy person. And as I drive around singing, I make sure I'm keeping my jaw loose and if it starts to lock up, I sing while wiggling my jaw and sometimes my neck and shoulders. I probably look like I'm have a seizure. And I do my warm ups while wiggling my jaw. And if I catch myself clenching during the day, I wiggle my jaw. On the bright side, it seems to be helping. Now I just have to do it so much that it retrains my body and mind not to clench my jaw.
I am exhausted beyond description right now. And I really just want to go to sleep. But now that I just killed a giant spider in my room, I keep looking for more. It might be safer if I sleep in my car. They look like man-eating spiders. I don't know where they're coming from, but they better go to sleep outside. And tomorrow I'll take care of spraying all doors and windows etc so that they don't feel welcome. If I make it to tomorrow....
Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night is rarely a good idea. Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night and realizing you don't have a rolling pin...even worse. THEN you get the "brilliant" idea to use one of those big church cannery cans. And it's extra moist out because of the humidity...blah! AND you have the stroke of genius to make your cinnamon rolls in cupcake papers and pans so they're easier to transport and eat at rehearsal tomorrow. It was a HOT MESS in my kitchen (although, still less of a mess than anytime that certain roommate bakes) tonight. My Cast-mates had better appreciate and love these cinnamon rolls!
Making Cinnamon Rolls at 10:00 at night is still a better idea than putting together your new desk at 10:00 at night. That one will have to wait until tomorrow.
Most of the time, I can convince myself that I can survive the next 50+ years (probably closer to 60+ years considering the awesome genes in the family) without a husband. I mean, really, a lot of things are pretty much the same. I still take care of the budget and the bills, there's just less to work with...on both ends, so that's good. I still cook and clean. I still do laundry. I still grocery shop. I still shop on sale. I still do a lot of the things I did before. But I don't have to share a bed and listen to anyone snore. And I don't have to check in with anyone before I make plans. I don't have to accomodate another person with my cooking. I don't have to deal with in-laws. However, I do have to be the bread-winner. I don't mind working, especially since I know it's a necessity. I don't have anyone else to rely on or lean on in times of crisis. I don't have anyone to pick up the slack when I get really stressed out. I don't have anyone to sit and help me put furniture together or make cinnamon rolls with at 10:00 at night.
I just killed the third giant spider of the day. It is NOT okay. I can deal with the occassional creepy-crawly in the house. But 3 GIANT ones in a single day? I might not sleep tonight. Is it inappropriate to pray for a spider incident-free night? And I'll definitely be spraying the house with bug spray tomorrow. Apparently with the draught, we should all be expecting to see more of the precious little darlings. *shudder*
Jaw tension is the bane of my existence right now. Apparently, with all the stress of the last couple years, I've been clenching my jaw while I sleep AND now that I'm aware of the problem, I catch myself doing it during the day too. And it is wreaking havoc with my singing. Now that I've caught on to the problem, I'm working to solve it. But it is HARD work! I wake up every morning and do jaw wiggling and loosening exercises. I look like a crazy person. And as I drive around singing, I make sure I'm keeping my jaw loose and if it starts to lock up, I sing while wiggling my jaw and sometimes my neck and shoulders. I probably look like I'm have a seizure. And I do my warm ups while wiggling my jaw. And if I catch myself clenching during the day, I wiggle my jaw. On the bright side, it seems to be helping. Now I just have to do it so much that it retrains my body and mind not to clench my jaw.
I am exhausted beyond description right now. And I really just want to go to sleep. But now that I just killed a giant spider in my room, I keep looking for more. It might be safer if I sleep in my car. They look like man-eating spiders. I don't know where they're coming from, but they better go to sleep outside. And tomorrow I'll take care of spraying all doors and windows etc so that they don't feel welcome. If I make it to tomorrow....
Thursday, August 9, 2012
*Insert Olympic Fanfare Here*
I really love watching the Olympics. And I have been sadly deprived of the privilege for the most part this time around. And I am most displeased.
You see, a few weeks ago, I got amitious and pulled al the furniture out from the walls to vacuum and clean and such(fine. I found a giant spider and wanted to make sure he didn't have any friends). While I had the TV moved out, I tried hooking up the TV to the antenna. I don't think I got the cable on quite right. I oculd get a picture on the TV, but no sound. Of course, the antenna was giving me limited channels anyway... 4 and 13. And I never got around to having someone come and try to get things situated correctly. Part of it may be pride. I get pretty determined that I can do things by myself. And I get extra irritated with an Electronic device gets the best of me.
Anyway, because of this, I haven't watch much of the Olympics, just what I catch when I'm visit other people's houses. I feel kind of ripped off.
Truth be told, I REALLY love the Winter Olypmics. I always wanted to be a figure skater.
You see, a few weeks ago, I got amitious and pulled al the furniture out from the walls to vacuum and clean and such(fine. I found a giant spider and wanted to make sure he didn't have any friends). While I had the TV moved out, I tried hooking up the TV to the antenna. I don't think I got the cable on quite right. I oculd get a picture on the TV, but no sound. Of course, the antenna was giving me limited channels anyway... 4 and 13. And I never got around to having someone come and try to get things situated correctly. Part of it may be pride. I get pretty determined that I can do things by myself. And I get extra irritated with an Electronic device gets the best of me.
Anyway, because of this, I haven't watch much of the Olympics, just what I catch when I'm visit other people's houses. I feel kind of ripped off.
Truth be told, I REALLY love the Winter Olypmics. I always wanted to be a figure skater.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
I Guess You Learn Something New Everyday?
It just might not be what you think you're going to learn.
Today was my first day of my first official Pharmacy class. My Pharmacy Math class was actually in the Math Classroom, where as all my Pharmacy classes are held in Pharmacy Classroom. And while I learned a lot about the history of Pharmacy and some of the things that have changed over time (that was Module 1), I also learned a lot of other very um...valuable?...and um....useful?... information. I don't want to hoard all of this wisdom. I would feel just plain selfish. Allow me to share....
#1- That whole tolerance thing I'm working really hard on, particularly where it applies to my one roommate (whom I still want to kill, btw...but I haven't), is really going to be put to the test with some of the people in the Pharmacy Technician Program.
#2- On that note, I learned I am just one of those really intense, focused people. Okay. I already knew that. What I didn't necessarily know was that it was such a complete rarity. In my math class, I sat and did math homework for 6 hours. And while it got a little tedious and I started to see cross-eyed, not once did I wish I had someone to chat with. I don't like distractions.
#3- Which leads me to...growing up the oldest of 6 kids taught me how to tune out excess noise while I work. I can actually do it fairly effectively. Of course, it would be nicer if there weren't so many distractions.
#4- Dolly Parton has big boobs. WHAT?! This is brand new information! Oh wait. No it isn't. Not only did I already have this information, but one of my best friends is gearing up to play Dolly's character from 9 to 5 in "9 to 5 the Musical" out at Hale right now. And I've seen the padding it requires. Also, apparently the daughter of one of my classmates has a DDD cupsize. Really? Thanks for sharing...WHILE I'M TRYING TO TAKE A TEST!
#5- That whole "dress code" thing and "Professionalism" thing that was so heavily stressed in our Welcome to Pharmacy Technician-ing packet? Yeah apparently we don't enforce that. Good to know. Here I was concerned that I was going to go through sweatpant withdrawal. Clearly that's unnecessary pain I can now avoid. I mean, I won't wear sweatpants to class, but I guess it's always nice to know I could...and that someone will.
#6- My Pharmacy Tech teacher/advisor was 40 minutes late to class. At 15 after, someone came to unlock the door and let us in. Good thing I'm a self-starter, as it was my first day of class. I actually found her presence a little superfluous, actually.
#7- If you "teach"(and I use that word liberally seeing as all she has to do is grade tests and answer questions we might have) pharmacy at the DATC, it's best to be super familiar with all kinds of drugs.
#8- I am totally underqualified to be in this program. I do not take hands-fulls of prescription meds or even over-the-counters, if at all avoidable. I am not on anti-depressants. I do not have miscreant children. I did not get pregnant in high school and now have miscreant teenagers. I am, however, a divorced female. There are a lot of those in the program. Very bitter ones. With potty language. Which we were also instructed not to use as per our Code of Professional Conduct in the handout we were given. Silly me. I actually read mine.
#9- I don't think these people have ever met someone quite like me. Sorry kids. I'm not here to join your Angry Bitties club. And I have ZERO desire to discuss your kids going to the principal's office or your daughter's boyfriend or ANYONE'S boob-size. I'm here to take my classes, kick your butts on every test (seriously I get that we can take the test more than once. But why plan on taking in more than once? "Just take it and then you'll know what to study." Yeah. That's clearly how I function....NOT!), get certified and leave you all. I'd even use this as a stepping stone to Pharmacy School, if it didn't take so long and cost so much money. Oh. And I'm older than you think. Older than several of you, with your miscreant teenagers.
#10- I'm really grateful the kid with the Ukelele wasn't there today. I might have killed him.
See? Look at all the new things I learned today! But you know what? Not a one of them were on my test....which I passed the first time, thank you very much...with 100%.
Today was my first day of my first official Pharmacy class. My Pharmacy Math class was actually in the Math Classroom, where as all my Pharmacy classes are held in Pharmacy Classroom. And while I learned a lot about the history of Pharmacy and some of the things that have changed over time (that was Module 1), I also learned a lot of other very um...valuable?...and um....useful?... information. I don't want to hoard all of this wisdom. I would feel just plain selfish. Allow me to share....
#1- That whole tolerance thing I'm working really hard on, particularly where it applies to my one roommate (whom I still want to kill, btw...but I haven't), is really going to be put to the test with some of the people in the Pharmacy Technician Program.
#2- On that note, I learned I am just one of those really intense, focused people. Okay. I already knew that. What I didn't necessarily know was that it was such a complete rarity. In my math class, I sat and did math homework for 6 hours. And while it got a little tedious and I started to see cross-eyed, not once did I wish I had someone to chat with. I don't like distractions.
#3- Which leads me to...growing up the oldest of 6 kids taught me how to tune out excess noise while I work. I can actually do it fairly effectively. Of course, it would be nicer if there weren't so many distractions.
#4- Dolly Parton has big boobs. WHAT?! This is brand new information! Oh wait. No it isn't. Not only did I already have this information, but one of my best friends is gearing up to play Dolly's character from 9 to 5 in "9 to 5 the Musical" out at Hale right now. And I've seen the padding it requires. Also, apparently the daughter of one of my classmates has a DDD cupsize. Really? Thanks for sharing...WHILE I'M TRYING TO TAKE A TEST!
#5- That whole "dress code" thing and "Professionalism" thing that was so heavily stressed in our Welcome to Pharmacy Technician-ing packet? Yeah apparently we don't enforce that. Good to know. Here I was concerned that I was going to go through sweatpant withdrawal. Clearly that's unnecessary pain I can now avoid. I mean, I won't wear sweatpants to class, but I guess it's always nice to know I could...and that someone will.
#6- My Pharmacy Tech teacher/advisor was 40 minutes late to class. At 15 after, someone came to unlock the door and let us in. Good thing I'm a self-starter, as it was my first day of class. I actually found her presence a little superfluous, actually.
#7- If you "teach"(and I use that word liberally seeing as all she has to do is grade tests and answer questions we might have) pharmacy at the DATC, it's best to be super familiar with all kinds of drugs.
#8- I am totally underqualified to be in this program. I do not take hands-fulls of prescription meds or even over-the-counters, if at all avoidable. I am not on anti-depressants. I do not have miscreant children. I did not get pregnant in high school and now have miscreant teenagers. I am, however, a divorced female. There are a lot of those in the program. Very bitter ones. With potty language. Which we were also instructed not to use as per our Code of Professional Conduct in the handout we were given. Silly me. I actually read mine.
#9- I don't think these people have ever met someone quite like me. Sorry kids. I'm not here to join your Angry Bitties club. And I have ZERO desire to discuss your kids going to the principal's office or your daughter's boyfriend or ANYONE'S boob-size. I'm here to take my classes, kick your butts on every test (seriously I get that we can take the test more than once. But why plan on taking in more than once? "Just take it and then you'll know what to study." Yeah. That's clearly how I function....NOT!), get certified and leave you all. I'd even use this as a stepping stone to Pharmacy School, if it didn't take so long and cost so much money. Oh. And I'm older than you think. Older than several of you, with your miscreant teenagers.
#10- I'm really grateful the kid with the Ukelele wasn't there today. I might have killed him.
See? Look at all the new things I learned today! But you know what? Not a one of them were on my test....which I passed the first time, thank you very much...with 100%.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Drama Free Zone
This is a Drama-Free Zone!
(Imagine me saying the above while drawing a circle around me with my hands...it's a big circle)
I do not like to create drama for myself. I do not need other people's drama to be part of my life. And most importantly, do not create drama for me.
I did not like drama in Junior High. I did not like it in High School. And I definitely do not like it now that I'm 30 (nearly) and a grown up.
It is one of the big reasons I had a lot of guy friends growing up. Guys are WAY less drama (consistently) than girls. And if you tell them to just take it outside and fight to the death, they will. End of drama. Girls insist on dragging it on...and on...and on. And I have zero tolerance for it.
In case you're struggling with the concept...
Don't drag me into your problems and I won't drag you into mine. And certainly to do not try to create problems in my life. Trust me when I tell you I have more than I can already handle.
Okay. I'm stepping off my soapbox now. You can return to your regularly scheduled programming.
(Imagine me saying the above while drawing a circle around me with my hands...it's a big circle)
I do not like to create drama for myself. I do not need other people's drama to be part of my life. And most importantly, do not create drama for me.
I did not like drama in Junior High. I did not like it in High School. And I definitely do not like it now that I'm 30 (nearly) and a grown up.
It is one of the big reasons I had a lot of guy friends growing up. Guys are WAY less drama (consistently) than girls. And if you tell them to just take it outside and fight to the death, they will. End of drama. Girls insist on dragging it on...and on...and on. And I have zero tolerance for it.
In case you're struggling with the concept...
Don't drag me into your problems and I won't drag you into mine. And certainly to do not try to create problems in my life. Trust me when I tell you I have more than I can already handle.
Okay. I'm stepping off my soapbox now. You can return to your regularly scheduled programming.
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