I have far too many things going through my head right now. If I don't get some of them out, my head might explode...and not in the fun way(yes...there is a fun way your head can explode...trust me). Terrifying as it may be, you now get a peak inside of the operations of Wendi's Brain. Prepare yourself for a little stream of consciousness typing(for those who don't know what Stream of Consciousness is...shame on you for not paying better attention in your English classes)...
Ugh I have Solo/Ensemble this week and I'm not even a little bit prepared...I need to print out the forms for the adjudicator...I'm so glad Mr. Smith is coming to do this and that his bell practice got cancelled so I don't have to worry about going over and making him late...His wife really seemed to like my song last night at the recital and told me it was one of her favorites...I really hope she casts me in Little Women...What should I sing for that audition...It's not until June so it doesn't really matter right now but I want to nail it...It sure would be nice to get a part where I get to sing or speak or be on stage for more than 3 minutes...I really wish my self image in this area weren't so connected to what other people think of me...and it doesn't even help to hear people say that I sound good or that I did a nice job because I'm so critical of myself I think they're lying or just being polite...Actually I need approval from others far more than I should...No it's not approval that I need it's reassurance...yes there's a difference or at least there is in my head...I need to look up what I need to take to the Social Security Administration tomorrow to get my name changed...that place smelled really funny last time...like urine if I recall correctly...BAH and I also need to go to the DMV...when am I going to have time to do laundry and clean my room and prep for classes and for Solo/Ensemble...Last week was a nightmare because of the recital and all the practicing and driving to Spanish Fork...Why does Cecily live so far away I really need her to be closer...of course she's married and has a baby so it's not like we would play too much...I need more single friends...Holy Heck my Singles Ward is a Bountiful High Reject pile...seriously it's not okay...I really like my apartment and my roommates but why did it have to be in Davis County where I know everyone...the really awkward thing is that I have actually subbed some of the kids in the ward...that's right kids I taught in High School are graduating and going to singles wards and moving ahead of me on the track of life...trying not to think about how I'm old...I shouldn't have eaten those 4 cookies and half a pint of ice cream today...I need to do sit ups and push ups...I'm so glad I'm not very sore from skiing yesterday...Oh skiing was so fun...yesterday was a GOOD DAY...I feel like today is a let down...isn't that how it always goes...I guess it's just the crash after the good day High...wish I didn't have to crash...I need a hug...but not from the Hug Whore...she wasn't at church today...I bet those boys were sad she was missing in action...heeheehee "Action" heeheehee...Those snickerdoodles were really good I'm glad I have a few more boxes...I get really bored on Sundays thus the baking and the eating of treats and the rambling on the blog...
I really hope you didn't just read all of that because it was mostly just to get it out of my brain. I should have just waited for a roommate to come home so I could ramble to her. Then only one person would have to suffer through it.
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